I didn't really enjoy my Christmas Day this year. I'm kind of unhappy over some words by some peanut-brain people. I can't blame the person for having such a brain that can't think much. You may say that I'm petty. Well... I'm petty. That's me. You might tell me to ignore. But the some meaning sentence or words don't just say once.
I'm jealous. Yes. I'm indeed very jealous over it. I can't stop anyone from saying anything. But why am I always the target? Because I'm young? Easily bullied? Just because I don't say anything means that you can just bully me? Hello... I'm a woman. You are a woman. How do YOU feel when I said "The person I like is <your bf's name>"? It's not always the same sentence, but it's almost the same meaning!
Here I am sounding very angry, I know.
My Dar did reply you "impossible", but can't you just stop it? There's so many other guys there. Why can't you just choose them instead of him? Yeah, you might say its joking.
Shall i just splashed some paint over you and say that I'm joking? Woman are sensitive. Don't tell me you aren't a woman? Because of you again, I quarrelled with my Dar. Just because I'm jealous that created this quarrel? Why don't you say that you are trying to break us up?
For those who wants to know why i flare up. Here's the reason.
Over the dinner, my Dar went out to smoke, you said my Dar likes plump girls. You referring to yourself is it? I know my Dar don't like me to be plump. I'm trying to slim down so that no other people have the chance to snatch him away.
After the quarrel, I cried to sleep. How i wish I'm not there during the dinner. But I don't feel secure. I hate myself for being such a scary cat for not saying anything when I'm being bullied.
This Christmas is so bad for me. Not only i fell sick, till now. I'm sad; jealous; angry and annoyed.
I'll be leaving for Bintan on Saturday. The boat will leave around 2pm. I seriously need a break out of this. Hope that I'll be happier when I'm back. Pray that I can be back safely without doing any terrible acts over there.
Suddenly there's 2 voices inside me speaks...
Angel: Michelle! You are such a stupid idiot to say such a thing!
Devil: You are not stupid and idiotic. Sometimes its hard to say when someone is down. For you, your feelings usually rules over you and that's alright.
Devil: No one cares about you.
Angel: Your family cares for you. They'll be hurt the most if you leave them.
Devil: How they wish that you are not around. You are their burden.
Angel: You are not their burden. You earned your own school fees and allowances.
Devil: That's because they want you to suffer.
Angel: You know its not that.
Enough! Shut up the both of you! Stupid angel. Why don't you stop me from getting jealous? If you did stop me from getting jealous, things would be different. And stupid devil. You really wants me to die ah?
By the way, if i really am gone, please kill the stupid angel for not holding me back. And also kill the stupid devil for asking me to court death.
I'm tired. This post is long and tiring for my eyes. I'm shedding tears when I'm typing this. Can you believe it? Its 2.45am now. Freaking early ok. I'm the earliest getting to bed.
Bye! *gone*
Friday, December 30, 2005
Saturday, December 24, 2005
How i miss blogging!
Its such a damn long long time ever since i last blog.
My last blog stops on 16th Dec... So i shall continue from there.
17th Dec, i went for Midnight Shopping Madness At Suntec City. Its from 9.30pm till 1am. There are so many participating outlets and so many things for me to grab. But, sad to say... I waited for the Fancl queue for almost 2 hrs. My Dar was quite fiery when i insisted on waiting. Its 20% storewide sales for Fancl and i need to buy lots of stuff. I spent $200++ at Fancl, which i was shocked when i paid for it. I just grabbed a lot of stuff i need and it costs me.... Oh my... I got to be on a diet, or else my wallet will shrink like skeleton soon.
After the long wait, we headed back home. I wanted to continue shopping for other things, but seeing that my dear hubby was tired and impatient, i could only left the place with only the things i bought from a pathetic shop. And i didn't redeem the lucky draw b'coz of that. Well, blame it on my neglience. I should remember to do it myself.
On 18th Dec, i was so damn tired that i slept till around... afternoon time? Big sissie called (eldest sis) and we got to go Pandan Garden. That's the place my grandparents lived in the past, but they are gone now, so its my youngest uncle and his family living there now.
We had a chinese ritual going on from 18 to 20 Dec. I lived there wif my big sissie on monday cos we nid to wake up ard 5 plus on tuesday. A long long story and many things happen. I didn't sleep at all... And Tuesday was a long day for us. There's a lot of praying to be done with the priest chanting. We burnt the big bangalow for the ancestors ard 11.59pm. The house was actually 2 storey tall... Can u imagine it? I was shocked when the house was fully 'bulit'. Aniwayz, this ritual is called 'gong teck'. I also duno how to explain. Just ask ur parents if u wanna know.
We headed home after that and reached home ard 4am, Wed. I slept at ard 5am... Woke up on Wednesday during afternoon 12.30pm and had to help out with some praying things to be done at 2pm. The priest came to 'settle' down my father. My poor big sissie brought my father's tablet home when we came back in the morning from Pandan Garden, and she got to climb all the way up to 9th floor. Well, the reason is b'coz cannot take the lift, its kind of a believe that they might not be able to get up using lift. Maybe their spirit might be trap in it?
After the priest left, i got to prepare for the party for the night. But i was so tired that i fell asleep and my sis woke me up. We had a celebration at Long Beach Restaurant @ IMM. The food is yummy, but we were unable to finish cos' its just damn filling. We reached home around 12am.
22Dec, I woke up helping out with praying again. Cos its 'dong zi'... Its a day for us to eat tang yuan. But i didn't eat.
I helped my mom 1/2 way and i went to sleep. Its not deliberately, its just that i don't fell well.
I heard my mom's nagging but was just too tired to response. When i woke up ard 6 plus, i went to take a cold shower as i felt that i just can't open my eyes.
After the shower, i feel so sianz... My sis told me to drink water. I was feeling miserable at that time. I vomited. I made some cooling tea and after drinking it, i vomit it out. Its just a miserable day for me. Whatever i ate, i'll just vomit it out like a merlion. My 2nd sissie and her bf took me to the clinic. I came home and took the medicine.
But, after taking the medicine, i vomit it out. Maybe i drank too much water... I just hope that someone please stab me with a knive at that time. Its so damn miserable and i wish to be dead. I didn't eat anything at all. The doctor said its stomach flu... Stomach also kana flu... haiz...
Friday, i woke up with slight headache and i don't have the appetite. Ate a little food in the morning, after which, i went out wif my 2nd sissie and her bf. They went Bukit Panjang for Cafe Cartel. Ate 1 slice of pork chop. Yummy... But was so filling. Maybe b'coz i was sick, so my appetite was not big enough. I remember that i could finish the Pork Rib by myself in the past.
After eating, we went Queensway shopping centre. Sissie bf getting the jersey. But in the end, we got nothing. We went down to Suntec City Adidas to get the jersey. The authentic jersey cost $149? If i don't remember wrongly. Not i pay one lohz...
He got 2 jersey and it cost dunno how much...
Aniwayz, Dar is playing mahjong... How i miss him. I'm sick and i hope that he's here with me...
My last blog stops on 16th Dec... So i shall continue from there.
17th Dec, i went for Midnight Shopping Madness At Suntec City. Its from 9.30pm till 1am. There are so many participating outlets and so many things for me to grab. But, sad to say... I waited for the Fancl queue for almost 2 hrs. My Dar was quite fiery when i insisted on waiting. Its 20% storewide sales for Fancl and i need to buy lots of stuff. I spent $200++ at Fancl, which i was shocked when i paid for it. I just grabbed a lot of stuff i need and it costs me.... Oh my... I got to be on a diet, or else my wallet will shrink like skeleton soon.
After the long wait, we headed back home. I wanted to continue shopping for other things, but seeing that my dear hubby was tired and impatient, i could only left the place with only the things i bought from a pathetic shop. And i didn't redeem the lucky draw b'coz of that. Well, blame it on my neglience. I should remember to do it myself.
On 18th Dec, i was so damn tired that i slept till around... afternoon time? Big sissie called (eldest sis) and we got to go Pandan Garden. That's the place my grandparents lived in the past, but they are gone now, so its my youngest uncle and his family living there now.
We had a chinese ritual going on from 18 to 20 Dec. I lived there wif my big sissie on monday cos we nid to wake up ard 5 plus on tuesday. A long long story and many things happen. I didn't sleep at all... And Tuesday was a long day for us. There's a lot of praying to be done with the priest chanting. We burnt the big bangalow for the ancestors ard 11.59pm. The house was actually 2 storey tall... Can u imagine it? I was shocked when the house was fully 'bulit'. Aniwayz, this ritual is called 'gong teck'. I also duno how to explain. Just ask ur parents if u wanna know.
We headed home after that and reached home ard 4am, Wed. I slept at ard 5am... Woke up on Wednesday during afternoon 12.30pm and had to help out with some praying things to be done at 2pm. The priest came to 'settle' down my father. My poor big sissie brought my father's tablet home when we came back in the morning from Pandan Garden, and she got to climb all the way up to 9th floor. Well, the reason is b'coz cannot take the lift, its kind of a believe that they might not be able to get up using lift. Maybe their spirit might be trap in it?
After the priest left, i got to prepare for the party for the night. But i was so tired that i fell asleep and my sis woke me up. We had a celebration at Long Beach Restaurant @ IMM. The food is yummy, but we were unable to finish cos' its just damn filling. We reached home around 12am.
22Dec, I woke up helping out with praying again. Cos its 'dong zi'... Its a day for us to eat tang yuan. But i didn't eat.
I helped my mom 1/2 way and i went to sleep. Its not deliberately, its just that i don't fell well.
I heard my mom's nagging but was just too tired to response. When i woke up ard 6 plus, i went to take a cold shower as i felt that i just can't open my eyes.
After the shower, i feel so sianz... My sis told me to drink water. I was feeling miserable at that time. I vomited. I made some cooling tea and after drinking it, i vomit it out. Its just a miserable day for me. Whatever i ate, i'll just vomit it out like a merlion. My 2nd sissie and her bf took me to the clinic. I came home and took the medicine.
But, after taking the medicine, i vomit it out. Maybe i drank too much water... I just hope that someone please stab me with a knive at that time. Its so damn miserable and i wish to be dead. I didn't eat anything at all. The doctor said its stomach flu... Stomach also kana flu... haiz...
Friday, i woke up with slight headache and i don't have the appetite. Ate a little food in the morning, after which, i went out wif my 2nd sissie and her bf. They went Bukit Panjang for Cafe Cartel. Ate 1 slice of pork chop. Yummy... But was so filling. Maybe b'coz i was sick, so my appetite was not big enough. I remember that i could finish the Pork Rib by myself in the past.
After eating, we went Queensway shopping centre. Sissie bf getting the jersey. But in the end, we got nothing. We went down to Suntec City Adidas to get the jersey. The authentic jersey cost $149? If i don't remember wrongly. Not i pay one lohz...
He got 2 jersey and it cost dunno how much...
Aniwayz, Dar is playing mahjong... How i miss him. I'm sick and i hope that he's here with me...
Saturday, December 17, 2005
I Just Don't Like this FEELING
I feel so neglected. I want some care and concern. Am i so unimportant?
Feel so irritated when people just simply don't reply my message. I got so angry that i just killed ants that were crawling around. I just use the pesticide and *spray*.
I'm so cruel now. I killed ants! My house is full of invading ants nowadays. They just love my house so much that they just refused to get out though I've killed a lot of them. They are my enemies. And i enjoy killing insects when i'm angry!
I'm a murderer. I can't believe myself to be so cruel. Poor ants... They were killed by me.
Why people just don't bother about me? Can he just reply my message? We hardly meet and hardly chat. Just a simple message from him, is it so difficult? Its 2am and he haven't reply me.
If today, Saturday, we not meeting up, it means that we can only meet up next weekend. Sometimes i do wonder if i'm still single. It seems like our relationship is not working. We are not a couple at all. Is just friends that meet up once or twice a week. That's just friends.
I'm getting emotional again. My heart rules over me when its at night. I hate this feeling. I would just cry so easily.
Should I hold on? Being loved by someone is better than loving someone. I want to be loved by someone. I only wish for that. Difficult? I guessed not. If you think its that difficult, than forget it.
Feel so irritated when people just simply don't reply my message. I got so angry that i just killed ants that were crawling around. I just use the pesticide and *spray*.
I'm so cruel now. I killed ants! My house is full of invading ants nowadays. They just love my house so much that they just refused to get out though I've killed a lot of them. They are my enemies. And i enjoy killing insects when i'm angry!
I'm a murderer. I can't believe myself to be so cruel. Poor ants... They were killed by me.
Why people just don't bother about me? Can he just reply my message? We hardly meet and hardly chat. Just a simple message from him, is it so difficult? Its 2am and he haven't reply me.
If today, Saturday, we not meeting up, it means that we can only meet up next weekend. Sometimes i do wonder if i'm still single. It seems like our relationship is not working. We are not a couple at all. Is just friends that meet up once or twice a week. That's just friends.
I'm getting emotional again. My heart rules over me when its at night. I hate this feeling. I would just cry so easily.
Should I hold on? Being loved by someone is better than loving someone. I want to be loved by someone. I only wish for that. Difficult? I guessed not. If you think its that difficult, than forget it.
Friday, December 16, 2005
Term Break is Here again!
Its another ending to a term. So fast... Its like i just started my 2nd semester and i'm gonna have 2 weeks break again. But this break is surely a busy one...
This Sunday till Tuesday or shall is say Wednesday cos the Chinese Ritual will end after 12 midnight, which is after Tuesday and erm... Wednesday Morning. Am i right to say that it ends on a Wednesday?
Okay... its the Ritual for the ancestors, my loved ones... And of cos, it includes my brother and my little cousin which both were already *gone* long ago. I will sure cry though its not a sad ritual. Its supposed to be a good one for them though. But i just miss my loved ones that were gone.
Sometimes, i just cry when i think of my Dad. I just can't hold back my tears. I wondered if my life would be better with him around? Would i be better? Would i be rich? That's what it comes to my mind. Here's Michelle, Michelle. Whatever will be, will be... Oh... Looks like i'm starting to sing a song. Don't get my joke? NVM.
Seriously, i just think of lots and lots of things. If Dad is still around, i won't be working so hard for allowance. I just need to stretch my hand for it. But, its all fated. And i hate this kind of fate arrangement.
Today, i had my BCA common test. Stress... I don't even know how to answer it cos, i didn't study for it at all. Actually i did study a bit though. But the questions just plainly asking things i don't understand. GRRRR... i hate tests and exams.
Something unpleasant happened today. Really unpleasant. I wondered if people are really so damn wicked. I shan't elaborate further. But i just wondered... Its amazing to see people being so fake, and sometimes i wonder am i their target too. It just makes me scared. Can u imagine yourself going up a bus. Someone just smiled at you so friendly, before you knew it, they took your things away?
Wicked right? I was so damn amazed... Its just an example. But somethings like this or shall i say identical happened.
Dar had company event for today. Don't know what time he will be back home and i wondered if he drank. I wanna go for Midnight shopping tomorrow @ Suntec... I wanna go Fancl to get my facial wash, I wanna go Adidas to check out on any new bags. I wanna buy clothings for New Year, I wanna get shoes! I got so many things to get. I just want to go shopping. I wonder if Dar wanna bring me there tomorrow.
I need to rest. Got to give tuition tomorrow morning, after that, i would become a wondering soul. Either go Dar's house or back home.
This Sunday till Tuesday or shall is say Wednesday cos the Chinese Ritual will end after 12 midnight, which is after Tuesday and erm... Wednesday Morning. Am i right to say that it ends on a Wednesday?
Okay... its the Ritual for the ancestors, my loved ones... And of cos, it includes my brother and my little cousin which both were already *gone* long ago. I will sure cry though its not a sad ritual. Its supposed to be a good one for them though. But i just miss my loved ones that were gone.
Sometimes, i just cry when i think of my Dad. I just can't hold back my tears. I wondered if my life would be better with him around? Would i be better? Would i be rich? That's what it comes to my mind. Here's Michelle, Michelle. Whatever will be, will be... Oh... Looks like i'm starting to sing a song. Don't get my joke? NVM.
Seriously, i just think of lots and lots of things. If Dad is still around, i won't be working so hard for allowance. I just need to stretch my hand for it. But, its all fated. And i hate this kind of fate arrangement.
Today, i had my BCA common test. Stress... I don't even know how to answer it cos, i didn't study for it at all. Actually i did study a bit though. But the questions just plainly asking things i don't understand. GRRRR... i hate tests and exams.
Something unpleasant happened today. Really unpleasant. I wondered if people are really so damn wicked. I shan't elaborate further. But i just wondered... Its amazing to see people being so fake, and sometimes i wonder am i their target too. It just makes me scared. Can u imagine yourself going up a bus. Someone just smiled at you so friendly, before you knew it, they took your things away?
Wicked right? I was so damn amazed... Its just an example. But somethings like this or shall i say identical happened.
Dar had company event for today. Don't know what time he will be back home and i wondered if he drank. I wanna go for Midnight shopping tomorrow @ Suntec... I wanna go Fancl to get my facial wash, I wanna go Adidas to check out on any new bags. I wanna buy clothings for New Year, I wanna get shoes! I got so many things to get. I just want to go shopping. I wonder if Dar wanna bring me there tomorrow.
I need to rest. Got to give tuition tomorrow morning, after that, i would become a wondering soul. Either go Dar's house or back home.
Sunday, December 11, 2005
Its a Sad Sad Weekend...
Piggyxin was tired. She is completely tired from everything. She just want to close her eyes and rest.
Its a long Friday... She had lessons in the morning @ 9am and all the way till 7pm. All because of a FFA revision lecture that was brought forward to this very day @ 5pm.
After the FFA lecture ended around 6.25pm, she called Piggywei... He was on his way home and piggyxin waited for him to be home instead of the usual Toa Payoh area where Piggyxin will sit at MacDonald or Mos Burger.
She was so happy when she saw Piggywei. Its another week ever since they last met, thus she looked forward to each meeting.
Saturday morning, Piggyxin went to give tuition and after that, she went back home. In the evening, Piggywei suggested 'ma la' steamboat. So they went Marina South for the hot and spicy steamboat. Of cos, they went back home after that.
Sunday, Piggyxin was sleeping till 1pm until Piggywei called and asked her if she wanted to go Guan Ying Temple. Its another 'chance' to meet Piggywei, so Piggyxin went. They shopped around for a while and after which, they went back home.
I WANT To COMPLAIN about MacDonald.
Today, i went to Bugis Village MacDonald with Dar. I ordered the Teppanyaki Burger Set. It cost $6.20. So add another $0.50 for the seaweed fries n upsize the drink rite? Aniwayz, its stated out in front of the cashier. Well, this idiot cashier dunno y he charge me $6.90.
Hello... Do you know your maths well enough? And when i told him about it, he say correct wad, the drink cos $1.95 and.... Hey! Excuse me... its stated there tt i nid to add $0.50 for the shaker fries and upsize the drink. Think i never order the set before meh? And the person ask the manager or wad to print the receipt. I DUN NEED THE RECEIPT lo. I got fed up talking to stupid people, so in the end, i just gave him the money with a stuck up face. Cos i'm damn pissed off with the person. I know that its only $0.20 i'm talking about here. But its about the 'dishonest' act here. If i were to order 10 set @ 1 goal, ain't it mean that they wanna 'eat' my $2?
I'm so damn fed up. I am so auntie i noe... i created a big wooha there. But i don't care... cos i'm pissed off with the stupid dishonest act.
Its a long Friday... She had lessons in the morning @ 9am and all the way till 7pm. All because of a FFA revision lecture that was brought forward to this very day @ 5pm.
After the FFA lecture ended around 6.25pm, she called Piggywei... He was on his way home and piggyxin waited for him to be home instead of the usual Toa Payoh area where Piggyxin will sit at MacDonald or Mos Burger.
She was so happy when she saw Piggywei. Its another week ever since they last met, thus she looked forward to each meeting.
Saturday morning, Piggyxin went to give tuition and after that, she went back home. In the evening, Piggywei suggested 'ma la' steamboat. So they went Marina South for the hot and spicy steamboat. Of cos, they went back home after that.
Sunday, Piggyxin was sleeping till 1pm until Piggywei called and asked her if she wanted to go Guan Ying Temple. Its another 'chance' to meet Piggywei, so Piggyxin went. They shopped around for a while and after which, they went back home.
I WANT To COMPLAIN about MacDonald.
Today, i went to Bugis Village MacDonald with Dar. I ordered the Teppanyaki Burger Set. It cost $6.20. So add another $0.50 for the seaweed fries n upsize the drink rite? Aniwayz, its stated out in front of the cashier. Well, this idiot cashier dunno y he charge me $6.90.
Hello... Do you know your maths well enough? And when i told him about it, he say correct wad, the drink cos $1.95 and.... Hey! Excuse me... its stated there tt i nid to add $0.50 for the shaker fries and upsize the drink. Think i never order the set before meh? And the person ask the manager or wad to print the receipt. I DUN NEED THE RECEIPT lo. I got fed up talking to stupid people, so in the end, i just gave him the money with a stuck up face. Cos i'm damn pissed off with the person. I know that its only $0.20 i'm talking about here. But its about the 'dishonest' act here. If i were to order 10 set @ 1 goal, ain't it mean that they wanna 'eat' my $2?
I'm so damn fed up. I am so auntie i noe... i created a big wooha there. But i don't care... cos i'm pissed off with the stupid dishonest act.
Thursday, December 08, 2005
THURSDAY
It's Thursday and it'll be Friday tomorrow.
I like weekends because i can sleep late. But, this weekend won't be a break for me. This is because, there'll be 2 common tests for next week and i got to study for it.
Planning... Now the tutor is telling us about planning. I got to plan for my future. I got to plan my time to meet deadlines and to achieve my goals! What a nice planning.
Suddenly i feel that this tutor is quite good. He's trying to entertain us sometime, but i guessed he failed to. He is just too ah pek le...
I'm so tired now. Later still got the stupid WCOM tutorial and i got to face that tutor which is rather.... yucky... her voice makes our hair stands and we just can't tahan her. Later got a test for wcom... wow... hate WCOM already and now there's a little test for us. I simply hate that.
NVM, shall talk aboutother things.
I want to sleep and sleep and sleep. Going on detox for today... so i got to drink water ONLY! Already feeling damn hungry now, but i got to perservere.
Lessons end at 4pm today, so sianz...
I like weekends because i can sleep late. But, this weekend won't be a break for me. This is because, there'll be 2 common tests for next week and i got to study for it.
Planning... Now the tutor is telling us about planning. I got to plan for my future. I got to plan my time to meet deadlines and to achieve my goals! What a nice planning.
Suddenly i feel that this tutor is quite good. He's trying to entertain us sometime, but i guessed he failed to. He is just too ah pek le...
I'm so tired now. Later still got the stupid WCOM tutorial and i got to face that tutor which is rather.... yucky... her voice makes our hair stands and we just can't tahan her. Later got a test for wcom... wow... hate WCOM already and now there's a little test for us. I simply hate that.
NVM, shall talk aboutother things.
I want to sleep and sleep and sleep. Going on detox for today... so i got to drink water ONLY! Already feeling damn hungry now, but i got to perservere.
Lessons end at 4pm today, so sianz...
Monday, December 05, 2005
What a day...
This morning is real cosy and i just don't wanna get out of my bed. I simply want to sleep more.
But no, no, no! I got FFA lecture. Its important to me because i'm such an idiot in accounting. Therefore, little piggy gets out of bed and went to school after some preparation.
The journey was long... But manage to reach.
After the boring FFA lecture which ended at 10.30am, went for lunch with friends and after which, went to library to rot... Our BCA tutorial plus workshop is at 1pm.
When time finally approach 1pm, we made our way to the classroom.
To our surprise, the lesson was cancelled and we waited 2 hrs for... NOTHING.
I could just reach home before 1pm if i know that there's no BCA for the day. But nvm, i just went home.
Annoyed
Now, its about another issue. I don't know where on earth a person with the e-mail add: ..... (i dun wanna reveal) sent me an e-mail asking me to add him in msn.
His e-mail add had the name Edwin and therefore, i thought he was a friend of mine.
After i had added him, he said hi to me and of coz, out of politeness, i replied.
And after i found out he is not my friend (after looking at his picture), i ask him how he got my e-mail and he said don't know from the where la... He explained but i forgot.
He asked me how old am i and i'm quite pissed off, so i just tell him to guess. After a little conversation which i just replied him coldly, he said i'm rude.
What the hell! And he said that the people aged 16 whom he knew are not as rude as me.
Well, he is 27 for heaven seek! I'm quite pissed off after i knew he is not my friend as i just don't like people to ask me to add them and i don't know them. I just don't know how to explain.
Well, i admit that i'm a person who is very direct. But what the hell you say i'm rude? Isn't it rude to get people's e-mail add out of nowhere?
What is this world coming to? Why are people all so crazy?
If you can't take what i said, then just like someone said, 'take it as though she's singing'... My singing is not bad though.
In the first place, if people never do anything wrong, i won't say things direct into their face. PLEASE wake up and think before complaining that i'm rude or anything.
But no, no, no! I got FFA lecture. Its important to me because i'm such an idiot in accounting. Therefore, little piggy gets out of bed and went to school after some preparation.
The journey was long... But manage to reach.
After the boring FFA lecture which ended at 10.30am, went for lunch with friends and after which, went to library to rot... Our BCA tutorial plus workshop is at 1pm.
When time finally approach 1pm, we made our way to the classroom.
To our surprise, the lesson was cancelled and we waited 2 hrs for... NOTHING.
I could just reach home before 1pm if i know that there's no BCA for the day. But nvm, i just went home.
Annoyed
Now, its about another issue. I don't know where on earth a person with the e-mail add: ..... (i dun wanna reveal) sent me an e-mail asking me to add him in msn.
His e-mail add had the name Edwin and therefore, i thought he was a friend of mine.
After i had added him, he said hi to me and of coz, out of politeness, i replied.
And after i found out he is not my friend (after looking at his picture), i ask him how he got my e-mail and he said don't know from the where la... He explained but i forgot.
He asked me how old am i and i'm quite pissed off, so i just tell him to guess. After a little conversation which i just replied him coldly, he said i'm rude.
What the hell! And he said that the people aged 16 whom he knew are not as rude as me.
Well, he is 27 for heaven seek! I'm quite pissed off after i knew he is not my friend as i just don't like people to ask me to add them and i don't know them. I just don't know how to explain.
Well, i admit that i'm a person who is very direct. But what the hell you say i'm rude? Isn't it rude to get people's e-mail add out of nowhere?
What is this world coming to? Why are people all so crazy?
If you can't take what i said, then just like someone said, 'take it as though she's singing'... My singing is not bad though.
In the first place, if people never do anything wrong, i won't say things direct into their face. PLEASE wake up and think before complaining that i'm rude or anything.
Kanebo T'estimo
I just bought the lip gloss i wanted.
It cost damn $39. It's so damn expensive. But, i like it.
It just look so nice. I mean the case. Tried looking thru' the internet for the picture of the Lip gloss but i just can't find it! So, i use my very lousy SONY Cyber-shot S60 to take the little lip gloss but, it turns out to be like this:
I never expect to go shopping around Lot 1 today. But it just so happen that i met Ming Sui (my secondary school fren) and she was on her way meeting Bibi (my secondary school fren).
So, i just joined and we chatted and after which, we just walked around Lot 1 and i bought this lip gloss!
I'm so tired now but i want to watch A Date With Vampire. Though people tell me its not nice, but i just wanna know the ending. Completed the BCA units F & G... But i still have many things which are uncompleted.
FFA common test and BCA common test are approaching soon. OMG! They are so near to me now... I'm so scared. How i wish they can just get lost. Hate tests and exams and projects. So basically, i just want to study without stress.
Talking about projects, i got 3 assignments to complete by this week. So many things to remember and to do. I just hate the life i'm leading right now. Stress Stress and Stress...
Yesterday went to give tuition, after that, went out with my Dar to Orchard. Chose the Adidas bag me and Dar saw last week, but he said its too big. So in the end, i went back empty handed again. So disappointed but since Dar say its not nice, den i'll not get it.
Came back home by myself cos Dar meeting his friends for mahjong... Slept quite late and this morning woke up so early. Now, i'm tired... Its 1am right now!
I got to go... I got to catch some sleep...
It cost damn $39. It's so damn expensive. But, i like it.
It just look so nice. I mean the case. Tried looking thru' the internet for the picture of the Lip gloss but i just can't find it! So, i use my very lousy SONY Cyber-shot S60 to take the little lip gloss but, it turns out to be like this:
I never expect to go shopping around Lot 1 today. But it just so happen that i met Ming Sui (my secondary school fren) and she was on her way meeting Bibi (my secondary school fren).
So, i just joined and we chatted and after which, we just walked around Lot 1 and i bought this lip gloss!
I'm so tired now but i want to watch A Date With Vampire. Though people tell me its not nice, but i just wanna know the ending. Completed the BCA units F & G... But i still have many things which are uncompleted.
FFA common test and BCA common test are approaching soon. OMG! They are so near to me now... I'm so scared. How i wish they can just get lost. Hate tests and exams and projects. So basically, i just want to study without stress.
Talking about projects, i got 3 assignments to complete by this week. So many things to remember and to do. I just hate the life i'm leading right now. Stress Stress and Stress...
Yesterday went to give tuition, after that, went out with my Dar to Orchard. Chose the Adidas bag me and Dar saw last week, but he said its too big. So in the end, i went back empty handed again. So disappointed but since Dar say its not nice, den i'll not get it.
Came back home by myself cos Dar meeting his friends for mahjong... Slept quite late and this morning woke up so early. Now, i'm tired... Its 1am right now!
I got to go... I got to catch some sleep...
Friday, December 02, 2005
Stress Devils are coming after me!
My common test dates are drawing near. 2 papers are being brought forward before the term break. You see, we usually have our papers after our break which is called study week.
Now, 2 papers are being brought forward which means, i'm left with 1 more week to study 2 papers! Stress again. But on a lighter note, i don't have to study too much during my break. Cos i'll be left with another 2 more papers nia and 1 of which is after the common test week but that will be the semester paper i guessed. Pardon me as i'm quite blur.
So, which means, i'm quite free during my break! And here i am, ready to go Bintan with my sisters! My eldest sis claimed that she will sponsor everything except food. So, i guessed that i will just starve myself. Haahaa... Opps, i haven't tell Dar about my trip yet... I'll be setting off on 31st Dec and comes back on the 2nd Jan... 3 dayz 2 nights... I simply love overseas trip. It will be a relaxing time for me. I hope it won't rain for a day so that i can go sun-tanning.
I want to be a different me when I'm back to school in January after the term break.
I'm seriously trying to shed kilos from my body now. I want to get 45kg! I want back my old weight! I miss my little 45kg so much so that i can dream of it every night. OMG!
I wants to fit myself back to the old pants i got in my wardrobe which my mom urged me to throw it away when i pack my wardrobe recently. But i don't bear to cos, if i were to throw it away, i'll have no motivation. I know i'm short. I know i'm fat. I KNOW!
Before Chinese New Year, I want to slim down and let my relatives see that I'm back to my past and please if i slim down, don't say i too skinny le. Which my auntie from my mom side said that in the past and that's why i started to eat to gain weight and i regretted now. No more supper for me. No more late dinner for me. If i'm hungry, don't tempt me. I eat fruits, i drink water but not sinful food.
I want to show Dar that i have discipline too! He can easily slim down his tummy, i can too! Please show me support instead of demoralising me. I will faint 1 day if i continue to skip my meals... Please send me to the hospital asap if that ever happens.
I hate most food. They are gross... They are like shit. You eat it, they process and turns to shit. So why must we eat them? I'm starting to become looney... Please don't bother too much about me as i don't even know what i'm doing right now.
I hate BCA lecture today. The lecturer don't even know well of the program she's teaching. I wonder how can she teach when she still can ask us 'how huh'? 'y lidat'... Wow biang, please go knock your head against the wall...
Well, i really got to stop as i'm going to do my BCA assignment Units F & G... got to hand in thru the internet by Sunday... And i need to do my tutorials and start my revision for my common test.
Now, 2 papers are being brought forward which means, i'm left with 1 more week to study 2 papers! Stress again. But on a lighter note, i don't have to study too much during my break. Cos i'll be left with another 2 more papers nia and 1 of which is after the common test week but that will be the semester paper i guessed. Pardon me as i'm quite blur.
So, which means, i'm quite free during my break! And here i am, ready to go Bintan with my sisters! My eldest sis claimed that she will sponsor everything except food. So, i guessed that i will just starve myself. Haahaa... Opps, i haven't tell Dar about my trip yet... I'll be setting off on 31st Dec and comes back on the 2nd Jan... 3 dayz 2 nights... I simply love overseas trip. It will be a relaxing time for me. I hope it won't rain for a day so that i can go sun-tanning.
I want to be a different me when I'm back to school in January after the term break.
I'm seriously trying to shed kilos from my body now. I want to get 45kg! I want back my old weight! I miss my little 45kg so much so that i can dream of it every night. OMG!
I wants to fit myself back to the old pants i got in my wardrobe which my mom urged me to throw it away when i pack my wardrobe recently. But i don't bear to cos, if i were to throw it away, i'll have no motivation. I know i'm short. I know i'm fat. I KNOW!
Before Chinese New Year, I want to slim down and let my relatives see that I'm back to my past and please if i slim down, don't say i too skinny le. Which my auntie from my mom side said that in the past and that's why i started to eat to gain weight and i regretted now. No more supper for me. No more late dinner for me. If i'm hungry, don't tempt me. I eat fruits, i drink water but not sinful food.
I want to show Dar that i have discipline too! He can easily slim down his tummy, i can too! Please show me support instead of demoralising me. I will faint 1 day if i continue to skip my meals... Please send me to the hospital asap if that ever happens.
I hate most food. They are gross... They are like shit. You eat it, they process and turns to shit. So why must we eat them? I'm starting to become looney... Please don't bother too much about me as i don't even know what i'm doing right now.
I hate BCA lecture today. The lecturer don't even know well of the program she's teaching. I wonder how can she teach when she still can ask us 'how huh'? 'y lidat'... Wow biang, please go knock your head against the wall...
Well, i really got to stop as i'm going to do my BCA assignment Units F & G... got to hand in thru the internet by Sunday... And i need to do my tutorials and start my revision for my common test.
Its Friday Again!
Time flies like mosquitoes and houseflies.
It just flies like nobody's business. Well, i'm simply being boring here in the library and trying to create jokes but somehow, this is not funny at all.
My last post on my LMS project, i got something to add. I'm tired from doing editing through the night, but i was happy after i completed it!
But something struck that day. I've burnt the CD-R and i left it at home! Oh my... I panicked and called my mother. She don't mind bringing it down for me, but luckily i brought my external drive to school that day, which i don't even know why i have the urged to bring that little flat thing to school. Maybe i really want things to turn out well, and not because of my mistake which i always made. And INDEED, i forgot to bring that important disk.
So, my team mate, whom he say he also don't know why he brought additional empty CD-R to school. And there we were, happily burning our new product to solve my 'stupidness'. And of cos, my mama don't need to come all the way to my school which takes about an hour.
Though the feedbacks of the movie is not very good, which is also due to my stupidness and 'clever enough already, don't act too clever'. Cos i added music which don't match the scene and 1 of our classmates said it DON'T MATCH. Well, i'm quite heart-broken cos i act clever. All thanks to me, and i guess, it will somehow lose a little marks there.
Enough of that, i guess its over and i have to let it be.
On Wednesday after my lessons, i went back home. Ate a little maggie mee (instant noodles) and i was tired. Mom wanted to go to supermarket, so i went with her to buy 5.5kg of washing powder. After i reached home, i dead tired. After some dilly-dally here and there, i settled everything i wanted to do and *pom*, laid on the bed and i don't have any strength to move an inch. Maybe its accumulated sleepless nights plus a night of non-sleep.
And i slept till Thursday morning and woke up to go school. WOW! I'm such a pig.
Thursday, nothing really happen to me cos' i also don't know why.
Friday, which is today, i don't know why there's a kind of bad feeling. Maybe i had too much sleep and i kind of think a lot.
I saw my sister and her boyfriend or should i say *ex-boyfriend?
I'm afraid that i would be like her one day when Dar is to break-up with me. Cos, he is my 'longest relationship'. I've never feel so sure and never feel so right till i met him. Will i be able to let go? I really think a lot.
But if he really insist on breaking up, i guess that i would have to let go cos i don't want to cling onto someone who don't have feelings for me. That's hurtful and 'tong ku' for me.
What is love? Where is love? How is love? When is love?
Why must he treat my sister this way? Why must he let her suffeR? If its her fault, why don't he say it out firmly instead of acting in this way? What are guys thinking? Stupid!
I'm waiting for BCA lecture now and it starts at 2pm... time is just nice. Still can go to the washroom before making my way to the old lecture theatre. I hate those tables which folds up from the side. They just drops with a slight nudge and your belongings starts to scatter all around the floor. Ngee Ann Polytechnic whoever, if you see this post, please do something to the tables and chairs at the LTs.
It just flies like nobody's business. Well, i'm simply being boring here in the library and trying to create jokes but somehow, this is not funny at all.
My last post on my LMS project, i got something to add. I'm tired from doing editing through the night, but i was happy after i completed it!
But something struck that day. I've burnt the CD-R and i left it at home! Oh my... I panicked and called my mother. She don't mind bringing it down for me, but luckily i brought my external drive to school that day, which i don't even know why i have the urged to bring that little flat thing to school. Maybe i really want things to turn out well, and not because of my mistake which i always made. And INDEED, i forgot to bring that important disk.
So, my team mate, whom he say he also don't know why he brought additional empty CD-R to school. And there we were, happily burning our new product to solve my 'stupidness'. And of cos, my mama don't need to come all the way to my school which takes about an hour.
Though the feedbacks of the movie is not very good, which is also due to my stupidness and 'clever enough already, don't act too clever'. Cos i added music which don't match the scene and 1 of our classmates said it DON'T MATCH. Well, i'm quite heart-broken cos i act clever. All thanks to me, and i guess, it will somehow lose a little marks there.
Enough of that, i guess its over and i have to let it be.
On Wednesday after my lessons, i went back home. Ate a little maggie mee (instant noodles) and i was tired. Mom wanted to go to supermarket, so i went with her to buy 5.5kg of washing powder. After i reached home, i dead tired. After some dilly-dally here and there, i settled everything i wanted to do and *pom*, laid on the bed and i don't have any strength to move an inch. Maybe its accumulated sleepless nights plus a night of non-sleep.
And i slept till Thursday morning and woke up to go school. WOW! I'm such a pig.
Thursday, nothing really happen to me cos' i also don't know why.
Friday, which is today, i don't know why there's a kind of bad feeling. Maybe i had too much sleep and i kind of think a lot.
I saw my sister and her boyfriend or should i say *ex-boyfriend?
I'm afraid that i would be like her one day when Dar is to break-up with me. Cos, he is my 'longest relationship'. I've never feel so sure and never feel so right till i met him. Will i be able to let go? I really think a lot.
But if he really insist on breaking up, i guess that i would have to let go cos i don't want to cling onto someone who don't have feelings for me. That's hurtful and 'tong ku' for me.
What is love? Where is love? How is love? When is love?
Why must he treat my sister this way? Why must he let her suffeR? If its her fault, why don't he say it out firmly instead of acting in this way? What are guys thinking? Stupid!
I'm waiting for BCA lecture now and it starts at 2pm... time is just nice. Still can go to the washroom before making my way to the old lecture theatre. I hate those tables which folds up from the side. They just drops with a slight nudge and your belongings starts to scatter all around the floor. Ngee Ann Polytechnic whoever, if you see this post, please do something to the tables and chairs at the LTs.
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