Boring post again

Last Friday's party at DF is not very fun at all. Total of 2 fights I saw and a police check that spoilt my mood of the night. Nonetheless, I drank a lot.

After my lessons, I had my dinner in school with friends and Guoliang pick me up from school and sent me home to change. I took a quick shower and went down. I had to put my make-up in his car because we got no time and Rachel reached Vivo already and was calling us. She got super irritated.

But still, safety first.

We went DF early again and shared table with 4 uncles. I really admire myself because I approached the uncles to share table with them. Well, they are nice people and let us share table so I got nothing to say.

Dar came to pick me up and I got a polar puff as my supper or breakfast? I left DF at 5.30am and ate the puff at 6am. Haha...

Saturday didn't do much things. Went Jurong West, we had our dinner there and headed home to sleep till Sunday morning.

Went Vivo with Dar, his mom and his aunty in the afternoon and Dar and I went for our lunch with the aunties shop for their things. Had Sushi Tei which I always love. Sent Dar's mom and aunty home around 3pm and we headed to Westmall. Dar sent me for tuition after that. Till now, I'm still feeling tired. I don't know why but I hope to sleep for a long long time.

Lose Fats!

Today I went to school gym with Joanna, Xiao Xuan and Shao Ping. Its been a long time ever since I last workout and I felt so tired after exercising. I think my fats are really building up and if I don't start working out now, I'm unable to slim down for my sis' ROM day which is is September.

Oh no... I've said I wanted to slim down when my eldest sis ROM in March but failed to do that. So I really got to do that now!

But I need to get a new pair of sports shoes because the sole of my shoes came off and I'm so sad. Anyway this pair of shoes had been with me for 7 years! Who can give me a new pair of sports shoes? I also want to own the LV bag I saw. So wanting to own that baby. Am I able to get it before my sis' ROM? So that I have a new bag to bring. Hehe...

Now I can only wish that I can strike Toto or 4D so that I can get it myself. Need to get some rest now... Tata...

Snobbish people

I’m at the convention typing away on Xiao Xuan’s laptop and I got so irritated by M-A-S-S-C-O-M people. They are simply idiotic noisy and the girls just love to scream so much. They are rather flirt too because they just touch here and there of the guys and the guys do it back too. I’m not referring to all of them but most of them. Some of the guys act cool and I don’t know for what reason they need to grow their hair so long and comb it so high too. I just saw one which the hair is long and his face just sucks. Oh gosh... I don’t know what these people are thinking because I just saw a sissy from the course. In fact, I’ve seen around 5 sissies from that single course and it is not a big cohort at all.

Enough of the stupid course which only produces many of the snobbish people.

I'm getting back to my project.

A Happy Woman

Last Thursday everything is solved. Friday morning meet friends for FMS project and went for lesson fron 1 to 3pm and meet up again to complete the project and we managed to get it done at 4.30pm including printing and binding and the collateral. I shan't mention about the irritating 'Happy Tree Friend' which caused us to do this last minute collateral thing.

I reached home around 6pm and I quickly took a quick bath and Guoliang came to pick me up. When they reached, I just came out from my shower. Guoliang and Rachel waited for me for 30 to 45 mins. Had our dinner at Vivocity Kopitiam. We ate quite fast and went over to DF at 8.45pm and Dar reached Vivo too. So we all walked over.

I think I enjoyed myself a bit because I finally got to drink many many. But still, I need to take care of people again. When will I have the chance to be taken care of? Though Dar didn't drink that night, but I still need to take care of Jeslin and Rachel.

Guoliang sent us home after that. I doubt he can enjoy too because he need to take care of us. So ke lian...

I slept in the morning around 6.30am and woke up at 9am unwillingly because I need to go school for the stupid PPP which they say if we never attend, we can't graduate. However, its an external instructor so we can actually get people to sign for us. But my friend msg me saying the stupid instructor stand at the table there so she don't dare sign. Dar drove me to school and I reached around 9.30am and I got a msg saying they have signed for me. But still, I went to class.

11am, we were released for break but me, Xiao Xuan and Weiling went to have prata and went home after that. I came back home to bathe and fell asleep unknowingly at 3pm. Dar called me at 4pm to wake me up because I meeting my cousins for mahjong session at 4.30pm. Dar came to pick me up and sent me over. But I only managed to reach at 5pm but still I need to wait for 10 minutes before everyone is there.

The mahjong session ended at 1.30am and Dar came to pick me up and sent my cousin and her friend home. After that, we went for supper.

Sunday morning went Causeway point with Dar for breakfast and after that Dar brought me to look at diamond rings. I saw a 0.24 carat diamond ring from Goldheart and its their celestial series. The shape inside is beautiful, its a fire shape. But didn't get it because its supposed to be a proposal ring. But Dar said that he will not get it so early. Just to take a look only.

Went to give tuition after that and went home by myself after tuition.

In the evening, went IMM with my 2nd sis and her bf. We had our dinner at Hoshi. A very nice japanese restaurant. Been there twice... Yummy...

After I'm home, Dar picked me up and went over his place. When I told him I'm going clubbing this friday and on 27th, he kind of got a little unhappy and we had a little squibble.

In the end, he proposed to me last night with a 0.32 carat diamond ring. Its super not romantic but its really a surprised. He had planned to propose on 27th but I've ruined it. As for what he said when he propose, I shan't publicize because its super mushy. Haha...

I think I'm a happy woman now.

Vampire emerging

Seems like I'm turning into a vampire soon. I just can't get to sleep at night and I can only sleep at about 3 or 4 am. This morning I don't feel like waking up for CLaw lecture but I drag myself up and reach school at 9.15am and waited for Joanna before going into the LT. Lecture ended at 10.50am and went for lunch at canteen 3.

Went for lecture and the CEO of ACCA from London came to give us a talk.

Now I am at convention waiting for my project mates to come and we can start our project. I'm already 1/2 dead. I want my bed so much but I will start to think alot when I lie down and can't get to sleep again.

There's a msg I really am angry about. "I noe u cant bear to let go".

I really don't know what to say but seems like everything is all over. I'm becoming a monster with no feelings and when will I be able to walk out of the tunnel?

Moody Day

Currently in school waiting for CLaw tutorial to start at 3pm. Last night seems like a long night when I was awake but I fell asleep unknowingly at around 3am or even later because I saw my clock at 2.50am.

Almost couldn't wake up this morning when my clock rings. Seems like I've ran a marathon last night because my body feels weak and my eyes were sore this morning. I really got a shocked when I looked into the mirror. I think I really don't have enough sleep.

Lecture in the morning is a tiring one because I couldn't concentrate and I almost dozed off. Nothing seems to interest me today and I ate a piece of chicken patty at 10.30am and at 12pm, I ate 3 pieces of cheese tofu. After lectures, went over to canteen 3 with Xiao Xuan and we ate fish slice noodles. I didn't finish it because I'm too full and suddenly I don't have the mood to eat.

I will be watching Harry Potter tonight with my 2nd sister and her boyfriend (soon-to-be-husband). I think this might make me happy for the day.

Tears...

I'm feeling super emo right now. Had been crying for some time. I don't know what to say but all I know is that I want to vent my anger on something but I don't know how. I got the urged to cry again but what for? Being alone is not scary at all. I know I'm able to overcome it and cool myself down. So my precious tears, please do not flow...

Things turn out really bad and the end product is not a nice one. There are so many things left unsaid because I really don't know how to say but deep inside, I know something is weighing me down. I got a bad feeling that things will go really bad and one day a separation will be the end.

How much does a girl need security, assurance, love, care & concern?

I really hate myself and now, all I can say is I'm not prepared for a relationship. I'm still a young and naive girl, and I'm not mature at all. All these lead to all the problems and misunderstanding. I can only blame myself and blame me if you must.

Should I contact him or let him contact me? Should I apologise or let him pacify me? I'm holding myself back because I don't know who is in the wrong. ME?

Some grumbles and unhappiness

Online chatting with tutor just ended and before I started dressing up and go school for my project, I'm here to blog a little. I guess the previous post is just posted by an angry me. I read and laugh because I never expect myself to be so nice. Sometimes when we are angry, we will just vent our anger on something. I don't turn to violence because that's not a nice thing to do. So, I turn to blogging and still, it is not a nice thing because everyone will know about it. So what shall I do?


I shall just stick to letting it out by blogging before I hurt anyone.


Have you ever sit down and think back to the times when we are so carefree with no worries? I've always been thinking back. I remember the times when my dad was around and he brought me for supper and I've always bought lots of food back. I remember when my sisters were playing brick games and they don't allow me to play because they said I will spoil it and I cried. My grandfather bought it for me the very next day. I remember my sisters not wanting to play with me and always lock themselves in the room because they think I'm a nuisance to them.

During my primary school time, I remember walking home with my friends and buying those stick of ice and breaking them into 2 and sucking it while walking. I remember buying packets of tidbits, tikam tikam and lots of food everyday. I remember buying fishcake with lots of chilli from stall no. 5 and keeping it in the pocket when I was in afternoon session and bring it back home for dinner. I really miss those times when I was in primary school because life is easier and exams are easier. I always pass my exams in primary school. I will always remember my best friend in primary... Guan Ting... I won't forget you because you call my sister, jie jie.

Secondary school days were filled with ups and downs. From friendship turning into enemy. This is the most complicated time because of BGR and its so amazing that friends turn to foes. However, up till now, I don't like to mention much about my secondary school days because its super saddening to have friends and they turned your back or backstabbing you and just a day, you lost all your friends. All thanks to 1 person? Or shall I say they are not understanding enough? Only after secondary school they realised that you are not in the wrong and they misunderstood you but with no apologees? Someone told me that this is not friendship. However, I really wanna thank Ming Sui and Rachel for standing beside me when I was down at that time. But, Rachel, when you have a bf, you will tend not go out with me and when you don't have, you will hang out with me. Please take note... As for the person that used to snatch my boyfriend(s), I really hope that you will change for the better and hope that your love life is a smooth sailing one. I also thank you or I'll never had a chance to be with my bf. As for those who don't understand me, I thank you because it make me a stronger person. I can live without friends now.

I think I will offend many people with this post but I've been keeping it inside me and I think it is time to let it out or else I will never let this big stone down.

Things are not completed

This is super crazy because tomorrow is Company Law project due date for the written report and we are still half-way done. I reach home at 11.10pm as Dar sent me home after staying in school for project. Last night I reached home at 11.50pm and I hate to take bus 67 at such late timing because the people are smelly! SUPER SMELLY that I really feel like puking.

Enough of the smelly part... I'm going to do my CLaw project in a while and best of all, I still have yet to do my Managerial Accounting tutorial and I got the stupid Financial Markets & Services re-test tomorrow. Did I mention that I failed that paper? I got 18/50 for the paper and I don't know to laugh or cry. Seriously I don't like this stupid module and it is an elective module which I didn't get to choose at all. I think that for couples, its best NOT to quarrel during test/exam period because it seriously will kind of affect the results.

I'm a very emotional person, I guess. Enough said. I'm super tired so I'm going to finish up my things and get on my bed.

Pissed off...

At this hour and I'm still in school doing project! How nice can it be? All thanks to Company Law. I suddenly hate this module so much because CLAW isn't a module I like. Super wordy and application to the question.

I'm feeling super sticky right now and I would love to have a cold shower and hop onto my bed.

Thinking of the long ride home made me feel super irritated. I dread the idea of a 1 hour journey ride home. Enough of it... I had a break and I need to get back to project. AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

Another week post

My last post was on 21 June...

22nd June I went to Dragonfly again and its quite fun minus the quarrel I had with my Dar before I reach DF. But overall is still a nice night with lots of games and indulging in Benjamin's singing. After leaving DF at about 4am, we(me, Rachel, ZX and GL) went for our supper. Roti prata with ice teh terik. After that, I headed home, bathe and do project and slept at 10am.

23rd June, I woke up at 3pm and do my things. Bathe and went to Marina Bay to meet up my secondary school friends for a steamboat gathering. Desmond is the earliest to reach and Bibi and I reached together because we took the same train and realised only when we reached Marina Bay. We waited for Kah Liang and after some chatting, we decided to go over to Marina South first to start our dinner. Bibi and I were so lucky because there are fireworks and our direction is simply fantastic because we are facing straight at the fireworks while the 2 guys were taking the food. Rachel, Ming Sui and Wei Liang reached after that. As for Huilin and Qiuling, they came quite late because they had their dinner somewhere else and came just for a chatting session. Its quite a fun gathering though its smaller group now as we all have our own commitments. After the steamboat session, GL came to pick me and Rachel up and after that we went to pick ZX up to go Rachel's place for mahjong. I'm so unwilling but Rachel is super excited to play mahjong. I went to her house to bathe and change. We played till 8am in the morning and went for breakfast. I think I'm super lucky because I won $110 from all 3 of them. I think I'm super bad because I'm the sole winner but maybe because I'm so unwilling to play, that's why I won. Opps...

After I reached home and bathe after a sweaty breakfast, I waited for Dar to pick me up to go Lot 1 at 11.30am. After that, went over his place and I slept like a pig. I slept from 1pm till 5pm. I woke up and ask Dar why is he calling starhub and fell back asleep till 8pm. He woke me up to go for dinner at Toa Payoh and all I gave him was a super angry face and I didnt have the mood to talk. A sleepy plus hungry woman is an angry woman. Luckily Dar knows and he still joke about it. After dinner, I started to open my mouth and talk.

Monday is school reopen and things are so super freaking fed up for me. My first week is simply something I dread because there are too many projects and deadlines are creeping in. I didnt do anything much for this week.

28 June Darling took leave to celebrate our 3 years 9 months which should be on 27 June but we were both busy on that day. But I went over his place after school on 27 June and no one was home. I wanted to give Dar a surprise thus I didnt tell him I'm at his place. Alone in the home is super boring and I so wanted to sleep through the day. Darling came home and was shocked to see that I'm in the room. Haha... Anyway we both went for lunch buffet at Kuishin-Bo on thursday and after that we picked his mom and went Isetan to buy things. Headed home and shortly we reached home, we went party world for a karaoke session.

29 June, Darling pick me up for dinner and we went for curry fishhead. We got durian puffs n our way back.

30 June Darling and I wanted to go Bukit Timah Market for lunch but it is close till september for some maintenance. So we walked to Beauty World for our lunch. I had fried kway teow and Dar had fishball noodles. We walked back to Bukit Timah Plaza and went Choz for dessert. There is one at B1 inside NTUC. Super sinful for the whole week! From buffet to curry to durian puffs fried kway teow and chocolates from Choz!

At night, Dar and I went Toa Payoh because Dar wanted to get his jeans and I had corn soup from MOS burger plus a ice milk tea that I shared with Dar. We went to get a pair of magnetic bracelets from Kin Kang. After 15% discount, Dar paid $166. Its said that if we wear, it will be good for our body etc. Dar had always wanted to get it since 1 or 2 years back but always hesitate. Quite surprise when he asked if I wanted it. Haha...

Anyway, to end this post, I would like to say congratulations to my 2nd sis! Wedding bells are ringing... I know you will read my blog and I really adore the big diamond ring!

As for my Dar... something to say to u. I don't mind having a 0.3 carat diamond ring compare to a 0.5 caret one because you can use the rest of the money to get me a LV bag!