Money ain't important?

I'm so damn disappointed in myself.

I've almost gave up my driving since February and I drive like a stupid auntie now. My car stalled a few times when I was trying to do my parking. I can't hold the steering wheel properly now and I hold it like its gonna leave me forever. This shouldn't be the way!

I told myself upteen times I need to relax but whenever I saw a lot of vehicles (especially huge vehicles, I'll panick).

Yesterday, I had 2 driving lessons. 1 in the afternoon and the other at night in the circuit. I don't know how to drive the 'S' course by myself. My instructor nearly puked blood when he repeatedly repeat the same thing.

Today, I just drove on the main road. But that doesn't mean I'm steady pom pipi yet.

My U-turn sucks like hell. I don't dare to do the U-turn though the oncoming vehicle is still quite a distance away. I'm so timid!!

I'm starting to wonder if I can get my driving license on my 1st attempt. Please bless me...

I'm getting broke from all these driving lessons and so on.

Up to date for this month, I've spent a total of $1196.44. This made me think of the unnecessary money spent in casino. If I'm not greedy, I can win $100 over and just leave. Why am I so stupid to stay on and keep betting? (Knock my head for being stupid)

(Feeling dizzy from the knock)

I'm going to have another few sleepless nights thinking about this. I got to hit myself with wooden plank every night to get myself to sleep. (because I'll just faint)

I shall tighten my belt from today onwards and stop splurging like mad.

Anyone wants to pay for my school fees? I don't think I have enough to pay for it and it'll deduct from my bank next month.

Which means, I can't get my lovely LV bag that I've been eyeing on.