I'm so sad... I regretted goin to KTV with my darling...
Last nite... 10/11/2004, Wednesday...i tag along GW to go KTV wif his ex-colleagues...
2 females and 2 males...plus us is 6 pax...
Before they arrive, GW say: "They always joke one...so u cannot be angry..."
I tot tt he was sayin tt they will suan ppl... But i nv expect...
Here the story goes... The 2 females...1 is old and the other ids abt 20 ++... she has a daughter and was divorced... Her daughter is abt 4 yrs old already... But she is quite a flirt...
We shall name her as P...
When we reached the KTV... 1 of the guy 'M'... sang a love song... P replied be sayin: " I told u tt i wont love u... i love GW truly..."
Although i was upset... i juz smile... cos i dun wan GW to be in a difficult position... But the worse was tt he didn't say anithing when P say tt... he shld replied easily be sayin tt P also no chance... but he juz kept quiet and laugh... I looked at him and was so furious...
But i didn't show it of cos... P also say tt today GW girlfren ard...so cant sing duet wif him... so issit tt they always sing duet together?
I noe i was jealous... But wad can i do?? GW was not sensitive at all...
When me and GW sang duet... They commented tt... "GW! u say sing duet have to look at each other one mah... Hw cum the 2 of u no look at each other one?"
When i heard tt... i linked to... issit when P and GW sang a duet... they will look at each other??
i was devastated... i didn't noe wat can i do... My worst nitemare actually turns out to be reality...
In the past when he went out wif his colleagues... which were now his ex-colleagues...
i was so afraid tt there would be a ger like P tt flirts ard... nw it comes true... Its so true...
i cant believe it... I wanted to run off... But if i were to leave... GW will be in a difficult position rite?? I have to think abt his 'FACE'... so i stayed on... I dunno wad i did was worthwhile anot... I dunno if he appreciate it... But whenever we were in front of his frenz... I will make sure he got "FACE"... cos i tink tt's important to man...
When we were on our way hme... I said, "U got a 'xiao lao po'... so i got to get myself a 'xiao lao gong' also..."
He knew i was jealous... so he ask me wad happened... I told him if he was in my shoes... he would be jealous too... He kept quiet...
He say he noe his colleagues very long le... den i ask him he noe them longer than me meh....
HE said yah... I was furious... In actual fact... I knew him b4 he work... When i ask him to tink it again... He say, :"yah hor...but i last time everyday c them one mah..."
I dunno wad to say... He dun wan to mit me everyday...now he got the cheek to say tt he mit them everyday... till today he didn't mit me everyday...but can i complain? He say he and P got nothing one... But who noes... If 1 day they were to go out for a drink... i wont noe if anithing would happen... If a girl threw herself to ani guy... would ani guy reject?
Till now my mind is in a whirl... i didn't noe wad can i do to stop this... I dunno if i can still tahan this... I've been crying since he went hme... i didn't have a proper slp... cos i came back tis morning 5am... He ask me dun tink too much.... He everytime say tt... But if i dun realli love him... would i bother? y cant he tink abt it........ It's not tt i dun trust him... it's juz tt since we got together... i've put on weight... and i dun haf confidence in myself... whenever he see chio bu... he will say.. wah chio bu... i dun have the right to stop him from seein them... but i'm afraid tt one day he will leave me...i juz love him... i've been cryin... till nw..i'm still cryin...my tears juz won't stop rollin down my cheeks... i cant stop my tears...
nw i tink abt it... y muz i always be the one callin him and msgin him... y cant he do tt instead? issit tt i'm not worth it for him to love me so much... it seems tt he dun care abt me...
I'm too stupid to go to the KTV... if i dun insist tt i wanna go... i won't noe... and i won't feel so sad... i told myself not to join him in future if he wanna go out wif his ex-colleagues... but i noe i will cry too if he goes out wif them... but if i go... i also dunno... i'm so confuse...
I dunno if i shld try to hack care him and lead a life tt is juz like single... like got a bf but living like a single....i realli duno...
