Last nite, GW called me...
He knew i was unhappy... I've cried the whole day... He ask me wad happened and i told him tt i'm sad... I'm so unhappy...
I confront him and ask him y he didn't response when P said tt the one she love is him?
He said sorry... but i dun feel happy at all...
I've always been happy if he admit his mistakes... but this time... this incident hurt me so badly tt i dun feel happy...
I dunno wad to do... my tears rolled down again... till now... my tears juz couldn't hold back...
I knew i was heart broken... but wad can i do to heal my wound?
It hurtz me when P said tt... though they were jokin.... but it still hurtz me...
If i dun love GW... den i won't get jealous so easily...
I suddenly hate myself... y i wanna get myself so hurt.... i shld not bother abt him...
He said sori mani times and said tt in future if P were to say tt again... he will replied her by sayin tt she dun have ani chance le... i told him even if he got say anot is behind my back le... cos i wont be goin out wif his ex-colleagues again... he said tt it depends on my trust for him... but now i dun even trust myself... how am i goin to trust him? i lose confidence in myself already...
i cried to slp last nite and woke up late for work today... i'm so tired... so tired...
i'm not onli physically tired... i'm also tired of salvagin this relationship...
y do i haf to be the one carin and spendin time on this relationship...
it's onli 1 yr plus relation...i can easily break off and start a new relationship...
but i dunno wad is holdin me back... maybe i dun bare to leave him...
i hope tt he can treat me better... he always say i tink too much... but if there's noting wrong.... i wont tink tt much either... i dun wanna tink so much also... i dun enjoy tinkin so much and causing hurt to myself... i'm so unhappy... i'm now workin... but i dun haf the energy to do so... i feel like slpin forever... den i wont have so much worries...
