Yesterday, me and GW went to his sis' hse...
On the way... someone called his hp... He didn't pick it up cos he was driving... The person called again and i offered to ans...but GW dun allow me to do it...he say is fren...
When we were at his sis' hse...he called the person back...after the call...he finally told me tt the person is tt girl AGAIN! We shall use her initial...'P'...
Whenever i wanna go out juz window shoppin...he will not do so...cos he say eat no nid money meh,...i respect him...so i always do as he say....so both of us seldom go out...onli if we nid to buy sumthing... but everytime he will ask me... is there a nid to buy this or tt... in the end... he hardly buy anithing for me... but tt's not important... the important thing is tt... as a couple... we can't always stay at hme... and watch tv... it's juz so stupid... as if we were married...
Back to the topic... P ask him out... if i'm not wrong... cos i overheard GW tokin on the phone... He postponed the date for their 'outing'... tt means...he will go out wif P... i dunno issit onli the 2 of them or a group... but i juz feel tt its too unfair for me... if normally i wanna go out and he accompany me... i won't be so angry... but now... suddenly i feel tt i'm the 'xiao lao po'... while P is his 'da lao po'.... b'cos of this i'm upset... and instead of consolling me... he said, 'u wan to tink wad go ahead and tink la'... and today he reach hme le he didn't call me back at all... onli when i msg him...'u slp le huh'...den he reply 'ya'... tt's it...
I REALLY HATE P now... i hate her....She's such a BITCH!
I didn't take my dinner last nite...cos GW say me fat... i dun wanna lose to P... though she didn't have figure... but i nid to have...so tt GW won't leave me... i'm feelin so tired...y our relationship can't be simple? i onli hope tt sumtimes he can give in to me... maybe he feel tt he had given in to me...but the pain is in me... mani times he had hurt me...i didn't wanna tell him...cos i dunno how to...maybe he didn't noe he's at fault... but all i nid is his understanding...
If he's in my shoes... how would he feel... upset? terrible?...
This week GW will be busy... i tink our problem won't be able to solve... i noe he won't feel sad at all... i tried to hold back my tears again and again... but i juz can't... i noe he can live without me... but i noe i can't live without him... i love him so much so tt he means much more than anithing else... i wan his 100% love... but i can't... cos he will never gif me 100% at all... i'm so tired... now is already 3am... i still got to work... but when i close my eyes... my tears will roll down...cos i will tink of him and the way he treat me... i feel so unimportant to him...life seems so miserable for me... i dun wanna face wif such problems.... but y muz it always be me? how i wish P doesn't exist... hw i wish she's DEAD!... i juz hate her to the core... she's such a BITCH...ASSHOLE!! SLUT!!!!!!!!!!! feel like killing her so tt she's out of this world...
I had enuf....realli enuf!
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