Boredom

Oh well... blogging during such an early morning...3.30am sia...abt tt time la... well well... simply b'cos of the followings tt made me blog now...

1) Cant get to slp...
2) Sista complain tt i nv update my blog
3) Nothing betta to do (which dun realli seems to be the case)
4) I wan to tell my dear diary things i cant keep inside me...
5) i'm feelin terrible

guess the above reasons is enuf oreadi... cos i still got a few but... haiz... dunno y i nw wantin to blog oreadi den i feel damn sleepy... aniwayz... while bloggin nw, i'm enjoyin the Oishi Green tea with lemon... which was brought back by myself during my recent trip to Bangkok which is quite long ago in May this yr... there's also another flavour to this green tea... which is green tea with genmai...

Dunno wad is goin on sia... wanna show u all the pics of my nice drink... but i cant upload the photos... argh! i've tried a few times... so i'm not goin to try oreadi... onli 140KB aso cant load meh?

aniwayz...its juz a nice drink... if anione wanna go Thailand... pls help me buy... haha... but of cos get the photos of the drink frm me... or u wan me to keep the bottle? haha... aniwayz... i've juz finished my drink cos cant load pics... den fed up

and aso i juz read xiaxue's bloggy... her post on s'pore idols and the recent superstar thingy...

I tink they oreadi plan to let whoever win... tt's my personal point of view... those who dun agree or is Weilian's fans... pls bear wif me cos i'm statin my point of view.

Well u see, now both got contract... juz different company... Weilian got contract from Play Music i think... which is not tt 'gd'... ermz... kind of not as good as universal music which Kelly got the contract from. and i tink sooner or later... Jun Yang and Xin Hui will aso haf their own albums... i tink tt's for sure cos Maia (i tink i spelled her name correctly) which participated in S'pore Idol... haf her own album too... though i nv realli go to CDs store to see...but sumone told me abt it and i was like...'huh? she got her own album?'

So tt's goes to show... if the 'idol' is tt gd, those music company will let them make their own album... so we shall save $ to vote the 'idols'...

I tink i'm damn bo liao cos i'm actually tokin so much abt idol thingy... which i normally dun tok in blogs...

Back to my usual self... tok abt my life... Ermz.. today... i shall say yesterday, Fri, 2 Sept...
I slept till ard 2pm...when Christine called me... after tt den realised tt 11++am, Joyce called me... so i returned her call... and she told me tt she, Amalia and Joanna... were at Ang Mo Kio Breeks!... Ask me wanna go anot... and i was still quite blur cos haben brush up...

But in the end i didnt go la... cos i dun haf $$ to afford... damn broke now... cos mani ppl's birthday... summore this month i wanna celebrate my Dar's b/d and our 2nd anniversary...

By right, i should go return uniform today...but slept till so late... so i gave up the thought...

After i woke up, i brush up... and Mummy came hme from work... she holds 2 jobs... so she went to work at nite... and returns the next day...

And yea...i got my breakfast plus lunch which is called brunch... am i rite? my 'brunch' is century egg wif pork ball porridge... i love porridge... though i hate it when i was little...

After tt, i went to slp again! i felt like pig sia... eat pork still act like pig...

7pm lidat, i received a call... the 3 girlz ask me go KAP (King's Albert's Park) mit them... of cos i was reluctant... cos i got to travel so far sia... if i were to be at Dar's place, i'll sure go... cos near ma... is of walkin distance... but frm my hse go there i wan faint... so i ask them y not cum to CCK MacDonald... they dun wan... in the end they cum my hse...

Hey girls... dedicated to u all... y so strange huh...my hse is near to Lot 1 leh... den if go Lot 1, they still wan cum my hse... dunno y they suddenly so strange... but of cos i let them cum... cos i alwayz welcum ppl cum... provided they dun say my hse messy... but indeed its damn messy...

But onli Amalia and Joanna came... Joyce went back hme... they slack at my hse till 9.30pm... and i forgot another thing... Joanna a little crazy today... she drank some alcohol at my hse... onli 1 cup for her... i think she feelin stress sia... aniwayz... i made a glass of Jim Beam wif Honey! i tink its nice... cos i tasted it b4 givin it to her... haha... cos my hse no coke...so i tot of using honey instead of gassy drink... clever me... but hope she dun go back diarrhoa...

Wow... i blog till here and its 4.15am le... me b'cum panda le...haha

Suddenly felt crazy... i miz him so much...

A Thai fren came to s'proe wif her bf... Dar and his frenz will be mitin them for dinner... i nid to go my cousin hse cos her baby 1 mth old... hope Dar they all haf activities after their dinner... den i can join...

I hate my hair sia... everyday bad hair day... see my hair i sian mani mani mani... y cant i haf nice hair... i hope tt i can do curl... but my hair dun allow such event... cos i seriously nid reboundin instead of curls... my grown out hair is not flat... its kind of a lot and summore machiam kana bomb... tt's y i cant cut short hair...

Everyone haf different kind of hair... y cant i be the luckier ones... which dun nid to spend time on the hair... i dun haf enuf $ to eat... still gif me hair problems...wad is this? y so unfair sia...

I wan to color my hair too... cos too black... i'm afraid of dolls... so if my hair is plainly black, i'll be so scared... imagine myself havin black hair and lookin into mirror... argh! summore long hair... wow liao... scary... if short, black...den ok... but long and black...

i've booked the Advanced Theory test... it'll be on 11 October... damn long... dunno wait till tt day i can still remember i got the test anot... and after i take the test, i nid to renew my PDL oreadi... cos expire in Oct... and i onli went for less than 10 lessons.. and now i forgot hw to drive le... i dunno wan to change to auto anot... driving manual is drivin me mad... clutch... sianz...

Hw i wish u r wif me everyday... i tink i'm goin crazy aso... his image kept poppin up in my mind... and i realli miz him a lot... the last time i saw him was on Sunday... if Saturday still nv c him... den Sunday aso nv c him... argh...

And ya.. i dreamt of him yesterday... i tink it was in the morning... cos i remember wakin up once... and i tink the dream came after i slept again...

It's so damn true lidat... i shall not blog here wad i dreamt of...

I'm starting to be crazy... i tink i've mentioned b4... but i dunno y... issit a lack of slp... or issit sumthing bad is goin to happen?

We've been quarreling alot... actually Monday wanted to go his hse... but den... waited and waited... no car... as his father uses the car and was not hme... so in the end, he declared tt he not pickin me up... and of cos, i'm angry... but i didnt say anithing...

Tuesday leh, same thing happened again... i came back frm my yoga class... and after tt i waited n waited... also same thing happen.. this time round, i'm angry... real angry n start to throw temper... he say not his fault... cos his Dad uses the car... well... i was tinkin... y muz he share car? get his own car la... den no more such problems... but i dun wanna say... cos i tink he will say... no $$ etc... n i shall not say animore too... cos he realli damn broke...

If i can afford, i'll get him a car... den i wont be so sad too... no car= no goin out...

He dun like crowd... if wanna go town area... he will say crowded or sumthing like... later the bus crowded... if got car to drive, he aso complain abt jam n stuffs lidat...

Fine... since lidat... den we shall be frog in the well...

I hate myself! i juz hate it... my life... stuffs lidat... i feel damn miserable... crying... yes... i'm cryin right now... i feel so weak... i cant tolerate my life... working...studyin... payin my own things... i'm workin for tt little $$ and i got to pay for expenses myself... sch fees, daily expenses, clothings, make-ups, facial... even shampoo, conditioner n shower foam... though i might noe hw to earn $... but i do wish to be like some ppl who dun nid to work... or work for extra $... tink they realli haf gd life... i envy them... i wanna earn much more $ den juz givin tuition...

Had enuf of myself... i hate my nonsense... y i kept complainin? argh! its 5am... tis timing... alwayz reminds me of Daddy... when i got woken up at such time cos Daddy leavin us... n we rushed down to SGH... but well.. tt's oreadi in the past... i can onli let him be part of my memory... though the memories of him r fadin...