I Just Don't Like this FEELING

I feel so neglected. I want some care and concern. Am i so unimportant?

Feel so irritated when people just simply don't reply my message. I got so angry that i just killed ants that were crawling around. I just use the pesticide and *spray*.

I'm so cruel now. I killed ants! My house is full of invading ants nowadays. They just love my house so much that they just refused to get out though I've killed a lot of them. They are my enemies. And i enjoy killing insects when i'm angry!

I'm a murderer. I can't believe myself to be so cruel. Poor ants... They were killed by me.

Why people just don't bother about me? Can he just reply my message? We hardly meet and hardly chat. Just a simple message from him, is it so difficult? Its 2am and he haven't reply me.

If today, Saturday, we not meeting up, it means that we can only meet up next weekend. Sometimes i do wonder if i'm still single. It seems like our relationship is not working. We are not a couple at all. Is just friends that meet up once or twice a week. That's just friends.

I'm getting emotional again. My heart rules over me when its at night. I hate this feeling. I would just cry so easily.

Should I hold on? Being loved by someone is better than loving someone. I want to be loved by someone. I only wish for that. Difficult? I guessed not. If you think its that difficult, than forget it.