Its another ending to a term. So fast... Its like i just started my 2nd semester and i'm gonna have 2 weeks break again. But this break is surely a busy one...
This Sunday till Tuesday or shall is say Wednesday cos the Chinese Ritual will end after 12 midnight, which is after Tuesday and erm... Wednesday Morning. Am i right to say that it ends on a Wednesday?
Okay... its the Ritual for the ancestors, my loved ones... And of cos, it includes my brother and my little cousin which both were already *gone* long ago. I will sure cry though its not a sad ritual. Its supposed to be a good one for them though. But i just miss my loved ones that were gone.
Sometimes, i just cry when i think of my Dad. I just can't hold back my tears. I wondered if my life would be better with him around? Would i be better? Would i be rich? That's what it comes to my mind. Here's Michelle, Michelle. Whatever will be, will be... Oh... Looks like i'm starting to sing a song. Don't get my joke? NVM.
Seriously, i just think of lots and lots of things. If Dad is still around, i won't be working so hard for allowance. I just need to stretch my hand for it. But, its all fated. And i hate this kind of fate arrangement.
Today, i had my BCA common test. Stress... I don't even know how to answer it cos, i didn't study for it at all. Actually i did study a bit though. But the questions just plainly asking things i don't understand. GRRRR... i hate tests and exams.
Something unpleasant happened today. Really unpleasant. I wondered if people are really so damn wicked. I shan't elaborate further. But i just wondered... Its amazing to see people being so fake, and sometimes i wonder am i their target too. It just makes me scared. Can u imagine yourself going up a bus. Someone just smiled at you so friendly, before you knew it, they took your things away?
Wicked right? I was so damn amazed... Its just an example. But somethings like this or shall i say identical happened.
Dar had company event for today. Don't know what time he will be back home and i wondered if he drank. I wanna go for Midnight shopping tomorrow @ Suntec... I wanna go Fancl to get my facial wash, I wanna go Adidas to check out on any new bags. I wanna buy clothings for New Year, I wanna get shoes! I got so many things to get. I just want to go shopping. I wonder if Dar wanna bring me there tomorrow.
I need to rest. Got to give tuition tomorrow morning, after that, i would become a wondering soul. Either go Dar's house or back home.
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