Tears...

I'm feeling super emo right now. Had been crying for some time. I don't know what to say but all I know is that I want to vent my anger on something but I don't know how. I got the urged to cry again but what for? Being alone is not scary at all. I know I'm able to overcome it and cool myself down. So my precious tears, please do not flow...

Things turn out really bad and the end product is not a nice one. There are so many things left unsaid because I really don't know how to say but deep inside, I know something is weighing me down. I got a bad feeling that things will go really bad and one day a separation will be the end.

How much does a girl need security, assurance, love, care & concern?

I really hate myself and now, all I can say is I'm not prepared for a relationship. I'm still a young and naive girl, and I'm not mature at all. All these lead to all the problems and misunderstanding. I can only blame myself and blame me if you must.

Should I contact him or let him contact me? Should I apologise or let him pacify me? I'm holding myself back because I don't know who is in the wrong. ME?